The Honeymoon is Over...

So now that I am almost six weeks into this twin-thing and my family help has been gone for 3+ days, I am fully realizing that the honeymoon has ended. Not that we've been picnicking for the past five+ weeks, but there is safety in numbers. One vs. four is a bit difficult. And I am NOT a homebody and I am being forced to be ever so much more so right now. I don't want to use this as a forum to complain or exaggerate or inflate in any way what I am going through--but I will simply say I am finding it way harder than I ever imagined--beyond me? no. Do I know that it will get better? yes. Am I depressed? no. Am I frustrated, tired, confused, sometimes angry and full of self-loathing? yes. Blogging is actually very therapeutic for me--helping me unpack the days and get some perspective. And though I can only speak for myself, I can say that Todd is also quite tired as well. The Bible says over and over that those who call upon the Lord will be heard--and He's been called on quite a bit lately--and I do feel as though I am heard. After all, I wake up each morning, I have a roof over my head--I have a beautiful healthy family and wonderful husband, I have the help that I need with the olders (thank you thank you Sonia), and I have this outlet to process my feelings. So praise God--even through the difficult nights and the trying mornings and the toddler tantrums and the 3 year old drama and the crying babies--PRAISE GOD!!! oh, and I'll post pictures tomorrow--cheers...